Starting New and 5K!

Okay now that you all have seen fail misserably and shut everyone out... Here I go again! I am starting today with a new game plan. I am making more rules for myself
Rule 1: No Sugar
Rule 2: No White bread Whole grains only!
Rule 3: Exercise Every day but Sunday
I am terribly excited about it mostly because Ryan is doing it with me! We are going to train togetherish for a 5k, we can't really ever go at the same time seeing that we have taylor and taytum.
I am really excited to start new and start good. I feel like such a Failure I never want to do it again. I got so down when I hurt my ankle. I knew every diet I have ever tried without exercise has sadly failed. Once I hurt my ankle my mind went into this mode of lose and depression. I never want to get there again.
I want to go buy a really expensive pair of jeans in a size 14. I would love to be a 10 but I think realistically I am more likely to get into a size 14 then I will work into a size 10. I want to put this pair of jeans on my wall. I will look at this pair of jeans every day and see what I can be and how I spent all that money I should really work to be able to wear them down. What do you think of this motivation???
Sorry I have not been posting I feel like you don't really want to hear me whine every day! I am ready to get back on that scale and show you how badly I have messed up and never do that again here we go...

I only gained 5 pounds and I thought it would be much more! I am so disappointed in myself, but I have to get over it and move on. I am starting a 5k program its called the C25k program (Couch to 5K) I am super excited Ryan is going to train by himself well with his friends and I am going to train on Mondays, Tuesdays, and Saturdays with my friend Lindsay Bowers. I am excited to have a running buddy I have always done it on my own and have not succeeded. I have done this program before and I failed so misserably. I tried to run a 5k on New Years Eve I trained a ton in August and procrastinated and tried to do the program in just a few weeks. You can't skip steps in life and that is what I learned. I am on my way to being fit and sexy can't wait to meet me!

Waiting!

Waiting to feel better.... I am sick of the pain and I wish I have been better on my diet but the other day I ate a little container of cookies because I could reach them and I didn't have to ask Ryan to get them for me. I have snacked alot because what else could I do. I am scared to step on the scale I think I've gained all that I have lost. I feel so helpless! I can walk on it now but my boot is awkward and I only last about an hour standing. We went to r.c. Willey to buy our tv. I did really good but paid for it later! I foing to miss my fit fusion classes for a couple weeks but can't wait until I can get back. I feel better and do better on my diet when I work out before I start my day! I have done so aweful on my diet I have been telling myself I deserve this I am injured! I always do better when I have the endorphines from working out! I can't wait to get back and start training for my 5k.

Injured and upset

I went to fit fusion this morning! I love fit fusion today we did speed and agility. I was doing so good I was keeping up with the class but during our last lap on our last thing we were working on I came down on my ankle and heard a POP! I tore three ligaments in my ankle and one in my foot. I am stuck in a boot for two weeks and I have to stay off it for a couple days. I am so disappointed! I feel so helpless! I am going to be working on my diet in these next two weeks!

Aweful week two!

I have disappointed myself this week. I didn't lose a single pound. I set my goal really low so that I could achieve it and get past this dreadful second week of dieting that is the week that I always give up on! I am so sick of being in this body. I can't find cute clothes that fit. On top of thay I have giant size 11 feet and the only store I can find my size is payless and even then they don't make every shoe they carry in size 11! I can't control my feet and I avoid shoe shopping at all cost but I want to be sexy and I want people to think wow she can't be a mom!
So this week was hard to lose weight because my girls were sick the first of the week and I couldn't go to the gym. My trainer also didn't show up for my session because I had to reschedule to take the girls to the doctor and he put it down for wednesday when it was suppose to be thursday I am getting a new trainer he doesn't make me feel like I am worth anything to him when I am training with him he is staring at the clock he makes me feel like I am revolting to him or something.
I want to start going to the gym every morning at 5 to start my day off and it'll help me to eat all day and I won't have to worry about a babysitter and there will ne lots of classes that early. I lovd fit fusion but it is hard core. I throw up every single time I go Jake says that is something I get use to and don't throw up after a while.
This week I did yoga, Maile came with me and it kicked our butts. We even did head stands. I can't do one yet but I will someday. My butt was sore for two days after.

First Week Weight Loss!

This week I lost 5.5 Pounds. I am so excited. I cannot believe it! Sorry I didn't post this last night. I had a busy day.

This weeks goal is to lose 2 pounds I know that the second week is always the hardest esspecially for me. Also to hit my 2100 calories EVERY day! Here I go! Wish me Luck!

Wednesday and Thursday

The past two days have been so hard for me. I have been so so sore from my workout with jake on Tuesday. I went in yesterday to do some cardio, i worked on the eliptical for 45 minutes. Today I did 30 minutes on the eliptical before i worked out with jake. We did chest and back today to help improve my posture.
He gave me my calories I need to be eating per day and i need to be eating 2100 calories. I thought I needed like 1800 and i never really get more than 1500 jake thinks that could be part of the reason i haven't been successful in the past. I hope with a new calorie goal i can be very successful.
My goal tomorrow is to go to fit fusion class and eat 2100 calories. Hopefully my legs will have recooperated by morning.

First Day with a Trainer

I had my first training session today with a trainer. It felt really nice to know I was getting what I needed out of a workout. My Trainer and I don't mesh very well I might switch if I don't feel more comfortable with him after awhile. I guess I can't get a BOB from biggest loser but I should get who I want right? We worked out my legs, shoulders, and core. I learned that the reason my back always hurts when I do abdominal work outs is because I arch my back if I start arching is when I stop.
I did really well on my protein today for breakfast I had a glass of milk with my fruit and fiber one bar, I had a handful of peanuts later when I really wanted a Muffin. For lunch I had a Turkey Sandwich and my next snack I had another sandwich. For dinner I made Italian Chicken and Brown Rice with green beans. It was a really good day all in all. I loved the gym I wish my session was longer than 40 minutes but I had to get home so Ryan could get to work. It was a Stressful day and I really wanted to snack every time I finally got the girls to calm down. I felt I deserved it but I didn't give in all because of you guys.

Here is my dinner recipe

Italian Chicken 236 Calories per serving
20 ounces Chicken raw Chicken Breast
1 package Fat Free Cream Cheese
1 14 ounce can Low sodium Cream of Mushroom soup
1 Package Italian Seasoning dressing mix

Mix cream cheese, soup, and seasoning together, pour over chicken in a crock pot. Cook on low for 5 hours or high for 3 hours

4 ounce chicken and 1/2 cup sauce 236 Calories
1/2 cup Long grain brown rice 108 Calories
1 cup green beans 40 Calories
Total 384 Calories

Tomorrow Wednesday
Goals
Exercise: 45 Minutes Cardio and 15 Minutes core
Tomorrow I don't have a session with my trainer so I have to push myself and make myself work hard.
Diet: Log all my food and get all my calories in
My biggest problem is trying to get enough calories for the day and still eat the right things.

:ONE DAY AT A TIME!