Waiting!

Waiting to feel better.... I am sick of the pain and I wish I have been better on my diet but the other day I ate a little container of cookies because I could reach them and I didn't have to ask Ryan to get them for me. I have snacked alot because what else could I do. I am scared to step on the scale I think I've gained all that I have lost. I feel so helpless! I can walk on it now but my boot is awkward and I only last about an hour standing. We went to r.c. Willey to buy our tv. I did really good but paid for it later! I foing to miss my fit fusion classes for a couple weeks but can't wait until I can get back. I feel better and do better on my diet when I work out before I start my day! I have done so aweful on my diet I have been telling myself I deserve this I am injured! I always do better when I have the endorphines from working out! I can't wait to get back and start training for my 5k.

Injured and upset

I went to fit fusion this morning! I love fit fusion today we did speed and agility. I was doing so good I was keeping up with the class but during our last lap on our last thing we were working on I came down on my ankle and heard a POP! I tore three ligaments in my ankle and one in my foot. I am stuck in a boot for two weeks and I have to stay off it for a couple days. I am so disappointed! I feel so helpless! I am going to be working on my diet in these next two weeks!

Aweful week two!

I have disappointed myself this week. I didn't lose a single pound. I set my goal really low so that I could achieve it and get past this dreadful second week of dieting that is the week that I always give up on! I am so sick of being in this body. I can't find cute clothes that fit. On top of thay I have giant size 11 feet and the only store I can find my size is payless and even then they don't make every shoe they carry in size 11! I can't control my feet and I avoid shoe shopping at all cost but I want to be sexy and I want people to think wow she can't be a mom!
So this week was hard to lose weight because my girls were sick the first of the week and I couldn't go to the gym. My trainer also didn't show up for my session because I had to reschedule to take the girls to the doctor and he put it down for wednesday when it was suppose to be thursday I am getting a new trainer he doesn't make me feel like I am worth anything to him when I am training with him he is staring at the clock he makes me feel like I am revolting to him or something.
I want to start going to the gym every morning at 5 to start my day off and it'll help me to eat all day and I won't have to worry about a babysitter and there will ne lots of classes that early. I lovd fit fusion but it is hard core. I throw up every single time I go Jake says that is something I get use to and don't throw up after a while.
This week I did yoga, Maile came with me and it kicked our butts. We even did head stands. I can't do one yet but I will someday. My butt was sore for two days after.

First Week Weight Loss!

This week I lost 5.5 Pounds. I am so excited. I cannot believe it! Sorry I didn't post this last night. I had a busy day.

This weeks goal is to lose 2 pounds I know that the second week is always the hardest esspecially for me. Also to hit my 2100 calories EVERY day! Here I go! Wish me Luck!

Wednesday and Thursday

The past two days have been so hard for me. I have been so so sore from my workout with jake on Tuesday. I went in yesterday to do some cardio, i worked on the eliptical for 45 minutes. Today I did 30 minutes on the eliptical before i worked out with jake. We did chest and back today to help improve my posture.
He gave me my calories I need to be eating per day and i need to be eating 2100 calories. I thought I needed like 1800 and i never really get more than 1500 jake thinks that could be part of the reason i haven't been successful in the past. I hope with a new calorie goal i can be very successful.
My goal tomorrow is to go to fit fusion class and eat 2100 calories. Hopefully my legs will have recooperated by morning.

First Day with a Trainer

I had my first training session today with a trainer. It felt really nice to know I was getting what I needed out of a workout. My Trainer and I don't mesh very well I might switch if I don't feel more comfortable with him after awhile. I guess I can't get a BOB from biggest loser but I should get who I want right? We worked out my legs, shoulders, and core. I learned that the reason my back always hurts when I do abdominal work outs is because I arch my back if I start arching is when I stop.
I did really well on my protein today for breakfast I had a glass of milk with my fruit and fiber one bar, I had a handful of peanuts later when I really wanted a Muffin. For lunch I had a Turkey Sandwich and my next snack I had another sandwich. For dinner I made Italian Chicken and Brown Rice with green beans. It was a really good day all in all. I loved the gym I wish my session was longer than 40 minutes but I had to get home so Ryan could get to work. It was a Stressful day and I really wanted to snack every time I finally got the girls to calm down. I felt I deserved it but I didn't give in all because of you guys.

Here is my dinner recipe

Italian Chicken 236 Calories per serving
20 ounces Chicken raw Chicken Breast
1 package Fat Free Cream Cheese
1 14 ounce can Low sodium Cream of Mushroom soup
1 Package Italian Seasoning dressing mix

Mix cream cheese, soup, and seasoning together, pour over chicken in a crock pot. Cook on low for 5 hours or high for 3 hours

4 ounce chicken and 1/2 cup sauce 236 Calories
1/2 cup Long grain brown rice 108 Calories
1 cup green beans 40 Calories
Total 384 Calories

Tomorrow Wednesday
Goals
Exercise: 45 Minutes Cardio and 15 Minutes core
Tomorrow I don't have a session with my trainer so I have to push myself and make myself work hard.
Diet: Log all my food and get all my calories in
My biggest problem is trying to get enough calories for the day and still eat the right things.

:ONE DAY AT A TIME!

Incentive and Motivation

Today was a good day I met my two goals. I met with a personal trainer today I am starting a program tomorrow. I am suppose to be at my goal weight of 160 pounds and 20% body fat in one year. Ryan promised me that we would go on a cruise once I get to my goal weight. I am excited for that cruise next year. Lol! I also promised myself I couldn't have another baby until I ran a marathon but that'll be next summer sometime.
Ryan and I are also starting a bet between eachother. Who ever goes without fast food the longest gets 50 dollars to spend on whatever we want. Im going to use it to buy my fancy dress for my cruise!
My goal for tomorrow is to have my protein every three hours and to step it up at the gym. Every day I will be setting a nutrition goal and an exercise goal. Wish me luck